30

So my birthday week is officially over, I spent a little too much money but it is okay and well worth the memories. I went gun shooting and finally fired shot gun, which was not at all as scary as it was made out to be. Later that night I had a goth themed party at my house, got smashed and woke up in the morning in full goth attire and make up. Last night I went with my digital arts instructor, his partner Perry, Nick (Capricorn Soulmate), and my sister Cassandra to The Magic Castle. Got pulled on stage by a German magician and helped levitate a lamp while new age music played. All and all it was pretty fun.

Almost 30

Winter anxiety has caused me to trim my bangs to an obscene length. People say they look good, but I don't very much care for them, when I get nervous or anxious I bite my nails or trim my hair. So I guess to me I see it as up front reflection of my anxiety. I can't wait until school starts again, I feel at a loss when I am free for the holidays. I don't want to think about anything that is not productive to me, I've been focusing on books and film mostly to keep my mind busy. Thursday is my birthday and we're having a goth themed party at my house which I am excited about, durning the day I will be going to The LA Gun Club in downtown and firing some weapons. Friday, The Medusa for Cold Cave.

I look back at my twenties and see now that the darkest hour has past.